Accuracy of Death

What will be the thing you will regret not doing if you know tomorrow is the last day of your life?

Most people will say it’s the courage. The courage to do something we have always wanted to do but afraid to do. Ask the guy/girl that we’re interested in out. Propose to the love of our life. Make that bold step to quit our job for something that is our passion but pays peanuts. Fight for ourselves. Tell people what we really feel. Be brave to take another path different from the rest.

We are 2 months away from the next financial year. We are almost 5 months done with this year. I am almost 23 in another 4.5 months. I have changed 5 jobs, only travelled to 4 countries before, taken the plane less than 10 times. I am a mass comm dip grad in the hospitality industry, freelancing as makeup artist and instructor in my own Academy, and most importantly an Amway distributor. 

Life has taken a truly different path than what I have planned for 3 years ago. But have I even gotten a teeny weeny closer to my dreams? And how far away from death am I?

I fear to die a normal person. Not that that is a bad thing. But I am afraid to be easily forgotten by the rest of the world with my passing away. We are not remembered by what we have, but what we did. What good is it if we have live our life in fear? fear of failing, fear of making mistakes, fear of being disappointed, fear of being betrayed, fear of everything.

So all the fears kept me standing at the same spot. Not improving, not becoming worse. But everyone is passing me by. I am getting older, there are natural disasters around Asia decreasing the world’s hungry population, inflation is making $50 feel like $10. My dad is 50 and my mum 46 and both of them wants to quit their jobs soon so that we can support them. My friends are graduating from universities and coming out to the society to fight for jobs with the rest of the world.

If I don’t find the courage to do the things I am supposed to do now, will it be too late before I know it? Will there still be time and opportunities for me to do them in the future?

The movie – Accuracy of Death – touched me. It’s no blockbuster, there is no fanciful plot. It is in its simplicity I saw meaning to life. When I die, I want to be remembered as described in one line from the show, “It’s not special and very ordinary, but it is very very important.”